금요일, 7월 29, 2005
What shld i do?
Im at the crossroads of my life once again. I see bleakness on my right, despair on my left. Should i venture forward or should i just stay where i am? I do not seek solace in the fact that im alone on this lonely road. But i do not care.
Im totally, immensely, really, truly, very, extremely, super bored. N i cant be bothered to think of any more words.
Whats wrong wif me nowadaes? Issit the work, the school, or the pple? -shrugs- honestly i dunno whats bugging me. Or shld i sae i dun wish to noe? Which of cos goes to show that deep down, i do noe whats bothering me, but i just dun wish to admit it. Sadness is not something to be shared wif pple. Cos it only affects pple's moods. N why shld i bother pple wif my own emotions?
All i ask is to be happy. Is that so difficult? Maybe i shld get a change of environment. Go out wif pple who can make me happy, make me laugh over silly things that they do, that just evoke the laughter n joy in me naturally. Volunteers? Nah..
I wanna go rollerblading!! I have been thinking abt this for like centuries n still i have yet to go. Argh. N recently another thing has been on my mind constantly. I think i m in love. Heh. With a pair of converse sneakers. *beams* Its this grey n pink sneakers that i seen on 2 strangers n i hav been longing to get it ever since. Haha i love my shoes so much i went to buy new laces (u noe the fancy kind) n 2 pair of new socks to anticipate its arrival. Pls do not tell me that they are out of stock at the last min .My world will come crushing down by then. N i do have mild heart attack thankew.
This world is weird..
또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:56 PM